Sad factor

为什么闷闷不乐，
是少了什么，
还是多了什么？

Madtv - Oprah Winfrey

Thank you Oprah for creating Dr Phil show. For without it I will truly be somewhere in Texas, sitting in a trailer, drinking excessively and touching my private parts while watching Mexican soap operas.

Not a happy ending

I don't like this ending, I don't like this ending at all. Why can't they let Brian and Ericka win, just this once? They so deserve this, they were the only team who figured out themselves that the casino was Monte Carlo. And they never won a single leg during the race, it's like good things can't happen to them.

Is this a sign?

流浪居銮

出发

今天早上我很早就起床，因为我要展开半天的居銮之旅。从古来火车站到居銮，行程大约40分钟，不过今天火车迟了20分钟，我不知道这是不是惯性的事。经济车厢的票已售空，我买了头等座位，多付几块钱。差别在于一排有只有三个座位，所以稍微宽敞一点。同时车厢两端各设了一架LCD 电视，不过因为技术问题不能操作（一点也不惊讶）。上车没多久，服务生就开始分派矿泉水和面包，这是我没有预料的，就不知道是不是所有乘客都有份？

居銮火车站

Kluang RailCoffee

到了火车站，我就马上进行这次行程第一件要做的事-到居銮火车站用早餐。选搭火车除了因为已有一段时间没有坐火车，另外就是为了品尝居銮火车站的早餐，所以我特地空着肚子出门。整个餐室空间不大，最多我想能同时容纳36人。放在桌上一小包一小包的是椰浆饭（还有炒面炒米粉），每包分量很小，配料只有花生和辣椒。烤面包有分圆和方的，圆形烤面包在其他地方应该不常见。味道还不错，没有赞不绝口，但值得尝试。

美禄RM1.40，烤面包RM1.10，椰浆饭RM0.70

之后我就开始漫无目的地游走，虽然之前在网上搜索了一些资料，想到要去哪里，要买什么，要吃什么。但是网上资料有限，加上我没有代步工具，只能用走的，所以也没办法到远一点的地方。不过有几样东西是我想完成的：买居銮咖啡，东发豆沙饼，吃牛肉面。虽然地方不大，但纵横交错的道路还是让我迷失方向。不过还好我有记下一些在什么街道可以找到什么。

Jalan Lambak 的战前建筑，据说狮子头的方向代表主人的信仰

我想先买咖啡和豆沙饼，很幸运的，我找到东发饼家，更幸运的，该店也售卖居銮咖啡，不然我真的不知道要上哪儿找。买完这些居銮特产时间已是中午，可见我真的绕了不少冤枉路。是时候找地方填饱肚子了。我想吃牛肉面，可是找不到网上说的源记，却找到另外一家东甲牛腩面。卖相不错，汤头也够味，值得一提的是每张桌上还放了一瓶醋让顾客调味。我觉得原本的味道已经很好了，所以不能理解加醋的逻辑。

电视机牌咖啡和东发咸豆沙饼（一包RM2.50）

东甲牛腩‘粿条’（中，RM4.50）

吃完午餐，逛了附近商场，我又走了好长的路来到St. Louis Church。这里离火车站至少半公里，绝对不是网上说的"a few meters away"。此时我的双脚已经累到不行，只想马上回家。又走到遥远一端的巴士总站搭最快的一班车回家。

St.Louis Church

和其他地方相比，居銮不是什么旅游胜地，但这次居銮之行是为了我即将展开的一系列流浪做暖身。

我是不是走了很大一圈？

更多照片

讨好自己

我应该讨好你，还是讨好自己？

好歌不停[24] A gritos de esperanza by Álex Ubago

Álex Ubago
Born: 21/1/1981
Origin: Spain
Website: http://www.alexubago.com

Being me

Sometimes I am so mad at myself for being.....me!

There is a positive side in everything negative.

Don't think, just do.

Looks good on paper, fails in execution.

Don't use feelings, use figures.

Because you can't get half the capacity with half the perimeter.

A dog that bites is a dog that bites.

Pot calling the kettle black.

跳针

Actually 你不需要说 actually，你说其实我可以明白。这样在会话中不时穿插着几个英文词汇究竟是for 什么原因？这些英文词汇都可以很完整地用中文表达，by right 我们不需要这么做的。But 很奇怪的是这种现象好像在办公室特别明显，是担心同事不能理解吗？

像这样看我用中文写，偶尔又跳针到英文会不会很突兀？我不喜欢这样说话，that's why 这是我要cejanize 的一件事。（cejanize 是无法用中文代替的，所以不算）

Madtv - 3 minute meal - Banana split

There is nothing more delicious... than a perfectly ripe banana.

迷橙记

昨天是我们第一次见面。你大老远来到这里找我，我很惊喜，整个心花怒放。

你就如我印象中的那么好看，你的热情让我招架不住，在你面前我完全释放，隐藏不住对你的喜爱。和你在一起的每一刻都让我觉得幸福不已，那幸福的感觉足以把我灌醉。

虽然时间很短暂，但我会努力记住那些画面，不让它们从我记忆里淡去。我固执地相信我们俩是命中注定，我甩不掉这迷信，也不愿意清醒。

你究竟是毒药还是解药，把我麻醉得梦游神离、无心恋战？

Needle in a haystack

It's the most dreadful roadblock task in the history of TAR. Unrolling hundreds of hay bales to find one of seven flags hidden. You need luck, and there's no other trick. You need to be lucky to find the bale with flag hidden inside, and you will never know it's the wrong bale until you spend all your time and energy unrolling it.

If we were ever to face this challenge, you have to be the one doing it, because I have no luck.

cejanize

cejanize /ˈsiːdʒɜːnaiz/ verb to influence and to introduce people with cejan's ideas and style

eg: Have you been cejanized? Let me cejanize you.

脸

原来我的脸并非百毒不侵，原来没有永远的天生丽质，我也像其他人一样面对皮肤问题。大约半年前我的脸终于沦陷，变得越来越不平滑。

我以为会像往常一样自动痊愈，不留痕迹。可是这次没有。我以为我不会在意，不计较面子问题。可是这次我有。

我要开始护肤了，要开始选购保养品。谁会想到我也有今天？

Tough day for Brian & Ericka

Brian & Ericka started the leg with trouble starting their vehicle. Quite a common problem in this game. And so they ended up reaching the first route marker last. At the roadblock challenge, Ericka had trouble counting the bells in the tower.

All the other teams got it right at their first attempt, Ericka only got it right after 4 trials and several breakdowns. But lucky for her, Brian was so patient and encouraged her not to give up. You really need this kind of positive energy to stay in this game, and Brian just never seems to run out of it, always stays positive and calm, what a guy.

The couple was the last team to leave the roadblock, and chose the dancing challenge at Detour. At this point almost all other teams have completed the detour, only Maria & Tiffany were still working on it. The girls first opted for the golf challenge, but after several tee offs they decided they were not golfers and went for the other one. Oh did I mention the teams have to swim their way across a freezing canal to reach the golf course?

Turns out before the teams started the dance, one team member must successfully hit the bell on a high striker. This was proved to be too difficult for the girls to complete, as after more than 70 hits, none of the girls could hit the bell. After serious consideration, the girls decided to return to the golf course. Yeah, swim across the freezing canal again.

After wandering around in their bulky Dutch wooden clogs for I don't know how long looking for the dance hall, an agitated Ericka was whining again. Brian tried to keep her spirit up, only to discover that they were supposed to ride on a bicycle to find the place, which they never saw, after reading their clue again, dumb mistake.

Finally the couple arrived at the dance hall, and Brian hit the bell at first attempt. Luckily only one team member had to hit the bell, otherwise Ericka would probably waste a lot of time there. After completed the dance, Brian & Ericka were surprised to find that they weren't the last team to arrive. But Phil couldn't check them in yet, as they did not follow the clue and ride the bicycle, and were therefore incurred a 30-minute penalty. Haven't they had enough setbacks for the day?

As the couple were waiting for the longest 30 minute of their life to pass, Maria & Tiffany were still at the golf course, trying their best to complete the task. However the girls just couldn't complete the challenge, given how much more time they would have. In the end Brian & Ericka checked in as team no.5, successfully avoided elimination. And I am relieved, I am rooting for them.

KL KL

Why is everyone in KL? Should I move there too?

好歌不停[23] Free Loop by Daniel Powter

有在YouTube 收看康熙来了（或其他台湾综艺节目）的朋友应该听过这首歌吧。
Daniel Powter 的Free Loop。

I'm a little used to calling outside your name
I wont see you tonight so I can keep from going insane
But I don't know enough, I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah

I've been fabulous through to fight my town a name
I'll be stooped tomorrow if I don't leave as them both the same
But I don't know enough, I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah

Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah

And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright

I'm a little used to wandering outside the rain
You can leave me tomorrow if it suits you just the same
But I don't know enough, I need someone who leaves the day
Hey yeah

TARA2&3

一口气在三天内看完TARA2 和TARA3，很满足。YouTube 真是一个宝。Thanks stentitlyzier!
感觉心很痒，如果自己也能参与那该多好。

因嫉妒而失眠的夜晚，胡思乱想

我嫉妒你的人生，嫉妒得我没法停止想起你.
为什么不是我？为什么是你？
为什么，为什么要让我发现你？
得不到你我不是很辛苦？
到底是谁的错？

我要的人生

我到底要怎样的人生？
。
。
。
人老了就会想这些有的没的。

Madtv - The Greatest Action Story Ever Told

Stop killing Judas!

Guilt is a small price to pay for happiness

我也不想一直换工作，只是没遇到可以定下来的地方，可以让我安稳发展的空间。
我希望这新的一站会是正确的选择，我希望这是一个好的开始。
Beatrice 说过，跳槽就是所谓的自我增值。
虽然怀有一丝丝的歉疚与不舍，但为了我的前程这一点牺牲是必要的。
感谢上帝给我这个机会，虽然当中有一些不愉快，但我获益良多。

公，你回来了

回来了回来了，我引颈期盼的电视剧集陆陆续续回归。

The Amazing Race Yr 15(已经连续七年称霸Oustanding Reality Competition Program!), Desperate Housewives, Ugly Betty 相继回到萤光幕。总算可以陪我渡过无趣的日子，我的生活恢复动力。只不过我的挚爱Lost 还要等到明年初，恨不得现在就可以看到，但又舍不得它的结束。

又要开始忙碌下载的日子了。

玄

每个星期的这一天
你在这里出现 我也在这里出现
一天又一天 一直没改变

等了一星期的这天
我期盼你的出现 累积七天的想念
一件又一件 我努力遮掩

不知道你名字 给你取名叫做玄
不知道你几岁 想像你和我同年

我们离得不是很远 为何不能靠近一点
是我们在互相避免 还是命运不肯成全

你是一艘军舰 我是海岸线
等着你来搁浅
你在宇宙边缘 我在地平线
我要超越光年

*此贴于2006年6月23日首播

将杯葛进行到底

又到了中秋佳节，我的杯葛月饼行动也进入第三年。
立场依然那么坚定，月饼价格也依然那么高不可攀。
杯葛尚未成功，同志仍需努力！
请投下您神圣的一票！

2007 - 我决定杯葛月饼
2008 - 抵制月饼到底

好歌不停[22] Superman by Lucky Laki

第一次听这首歌时，以为是一个女歌手。
万万没想到，演唱的竟然是三个来自印尼的小男孩。
Lucky Laki 的这首歌非常琅琅上口，点播率应该很高。
好可爱的歌。

Aku bukanlah Superman
Aku juga bisa nangis
Jika kekasih hatiku
Pergi meninggalkan aku

Ayahku selalu berkata padaku
Laki-laki tak boleh nangis
Harus s’lalu kuat, harus s’lalu tangguh
Harus bisa jadi tahan banting

Tapi ternyata sakitnya cinta
Buat aku menangis

Ayahku selalu memarahi aku
Jika jatuh air mataku
Kata ayah s’lalu air mata itu
“Adalah tanda kelemahan”
Tapi ternyata air mataku
Ternyata jatuh juga

Ayahku tersayang (ayah), maafkanlah aku (maafkan aku)
Jika aku masih menangis (masih nangis)
Masih belum bisa (belum bisa), menjadi seperti (jadi seperti)
Apa yang ayah s’lalu mau (apa yang mau)
Kita berjanji tuk tidak lagi
Menangis karna cinta

The bomb. The man.

Do I detonate the bomb, or do I wait for it to explode itself?
If the man should cost the bomb, then so be it.

石头记

会不会是我太追求身份和地位，才会梦见得到梦想中的工作。
可是依然甩不开与人比较的心理，连楼层比人低了一层也耿耿于怀。
可是无端端怎么走入校园，被每个人指指点点，还要躲避满天坠落的石头。
这些学生是想置我于死地吗？他们哪来的神力把这么大的石头抛得那么高。
还好我醒了，要不然被砸死在梦中。

爱。不释手

不知不觉，进入爱不释手的游戏。
点亮灯火，站在没有了你的领域。
没有回忆怎么寻找记住你的东西。
让你停滞不前的是不是距离？

Madtv - "Beyoncé" - Destiny's Child

Beyoncé: Commercial shoot's done, they just wanted one today, anyway...
Who'd look at the other two, when you've got Beyoncé?

Other Two: But what about us?

Beyoncé: Who says I need you?

Other Two: Tears on our paychecks...

Beyoncé: They come from my dad

Other Two: We'll file us a lawsuit...

Beyoncé: Better watch what you say girls, I'll put your ass out in the street

Other Two: We'll be eating government cheese
It's just Beyoncé who's taking it over
Caught up in her image, lost in her weave
We'll never sing solo, only the harmonies
We didn't know that Destiny would have only just one child

Beyoncé: Well don't you know that Destiny has got only one spotlight

Other Two: Spotlight, spotlight, spotlight...

Beyoncé: Spotlight, spotlight, spotlight...

Don't make me look like the bad son

If you need help, just ask for it, you don't have to give me a reason.
There's nothing to explain, you don't owe me an explanation, please don't think that I'm unhappy.

闹剧一场

这么可笑的送殡礼，应该是史无前例吧。如果你不在里面，何必撑起这么多把雨伞遮遮掩掩？
这已经不是秘密了，为什么还要躲躲藏藏地？为什么不要干脆一点认了呢？

你到底在担心什么？
怕失去粉丝的支持？拜托，偶像不能有家庭生活吗？
哦，对不起，你已经不是偶像，而是年近半百的老男人。

怕影响朱家大小的生活？难道现在他们没有被打扰吗？
怕引起媒体注意？现在媒体还不是穷追不舍？

你已经不是偶像，放下包袱吧。
难不成到你七八十岁了还硬要别人相信自己未有家室？
。。笑话

快！快！快！

最快的盖章速度


计算机神手


最快的火车


我也要向他们看齐，工作效率要快快快！

好歌不停[21] Ordinary World by Duran Duran

Came in from a rainy Thursday on the avenue,
Thought I heard you talking softly.
I turned on the lights, the TV and the radio,
Still I can't escape the ghost of you.
What has happened to it all?
"Crazy," some would say.
Where is the life that I recognize?
Gone away...

But I won't cry for yesterday, there's an ordinary world,
Somehow I have to find.
And as I try to make my way to the ordinary world,
I will learn to survive.

Passion or coincidence once prompted you to say:
"Pride will tear us both apart."
Well now pride's gone out the window, cross the rooftops, run away,
Left me in the vacuum of my heart.
What is happening to me?
"Crazy," some would say.
Where is my friend when I need you most?
Gone away...

Papers in the roadside tell of suffering and greed.
Fear today, forgot tomorrow... ooh
Here beside the news of holy war and holy need,
Ours is just a little sorrowed talk

关于喝水这件事

因为饮水机在楼上的关系，每天早上我都会装满3 瓶1.5公升容量的水放在座位旁，以减少上楼装水的次数。是的，接近下班时间我会喝完那3瓶水，我就是喝这么多水的人。曾经一度怀疑自己是不是有糖尿病，因为一直口渴和频尿。

在新加坡地铁车厢和车站里是不能吃喝的，包括自备的白开水。理由是为了避免乘客将车厢弄脏。这条规也太没人性了吧，喝几口水也要禁止，尤其新加坡天气又是那么炎热，真是死脑筋。

影片中的这位仁兄可以在5秒内喝下1.5公升的水，创世界记录了。

戒不了

我戒不掉网络世界，即使是周日要工作，还是一样上网到半夜一点以后才睡。每天平均睡不到5个小时就去工作，我就快练成不睡神功了。
我戒不了方便面，只要肚子还有空位，即使是半夜我也会煮一包吃下肚，因为填满肚子再睡觉的感觉真好。

何奇之有

昨天的日偏食，因为天气的关系我们什么都看不到。虽然日偏食不及日全食来得震撼，但可以看到太阳缺一个角还是挺让人兴奋的。根据资料马来西亚若想经历日全食要等到2042 年。以前一直不明白一件事，既然月球大概一个月绕地球一周，那为什么日食不是每个月发生一次？原来月球轨道对黄道平面呈5度倾角，所以三个星体并不总是形成一条直线。

日食是再自然不过的景象，可是大众依然要将这自然现象称为天文奇观。对，想观测到日食很不容易，可以经历日全食也很兴奋，但充其量只能说这是很难得一见的现象，哪来的奇观？何必喧哗？何必惊叹？何必鼓掌？

不能上网的电脑形同废铁

两个星期前电脑无故不能开机，整个人就快疯了。送去维修他们也一时间找不出问题，几天后才告诉我是motherboard 坏了。由于我用的款式比较旧，很难找到替代部件。即使找到了也需要更换其他配件，到头来整个花费还不如买一台新的。我不知道自己听懂多少，我差不多是电脑白痴，这些东西我几乎一窍不通，所以他们要骗我很容易。他们说怎样就怎样吧，我除了信他们还有什么选择？

就这样花了900 块钱买了新的主机，我一直告诉自己就当是给电脑升级好了。谁知道回家后发现不能上网，不知道是哪里出了问题。这样又磨蹭了一个星期，足足两个星期我不能在家上网，那种折磨逼得我快发疯。直到昨天才把电脑加modem 一起再送去处理，原来modem 已经开始疲劳，换了一条USB 电缆后暂时稳定下来。可是现在整个连线还是不太稳定，没多久就会短线。究竟是modem 的问题，还是Streamyx？

有时候真恨自己为什么不是电脑专家，面对这些问题时总是束手无策。

白礁一梦

白礁岛怎么比我想象的还要大，而且还建了很多工厂，不禁让我想起Dharmaville。更让我惊讶的是，在这里工作的人竟然有800个那么多，而且还有来观光的游客。天啊，这里什么时候成了旅游景点？

从山顶可以看到远处的小岛，其中有一座还可以快速地旋转，岛中央还有一座巨大的石像，真是太不可思议了。山顶还有一个许愿池，我们跪下来许愿，你不知怎么的还往池里投钱币。老实说，如果哪一天白礁真的成了旅游景点，我相信会很受欢迎的。

光浩死了

上个月得知你意外逝世的消息，虽然和你没有交情，但总觉得很难相信这是事实。原来上帝要取走一个人的性命是那么轻而易举的事。很奇怪，现在我面对生活中的难题，就会用你的死来提醒自己要坚持下去。

安息吧，朋友。

有一首歌

很喜欢这个广告，更喜欢这个广告的音乐。不知道是取自某一首歌还是特地为了广告而创作的，因为我查了很久都查不到这是什么歌。当然，如果可以拥有那部车子就更好了。

Madtv - Cindy Delmont

Cindy Delmont - Sexual harassment at work
"Not my family, not my co-worker, not even my minister."
"What about the guy at the fast food window?"


Cindy Delmont - Buying a car
"I'm gonna go with a different salesman, this one is clearly retarded."

原来玻璃不生花

前阵子报章上不是有报导玻璃"生花"的事吗?
就是有某种不知名的霉菌寄生在玻璃或金属上,像长出小小的白花,相当罕见.
两个月前我在我家的玻璃门上也看见了。
一丛跟头发一样细、上面还顶着一粒白色小米的东西，听说学名叫优昙婆罗花。
可是后来我在网上查了一下，这些“花”根本不是花，是一种叫草蛉(Chrysopidae)的昆虫的卵！

好歌不停[20] This love by Sarah Brightman

This love
This love is a strange love
A faded kind of day love
This love

This love
I think I'm gonna fall again
And even when you held my hand
It didn't mean a thing
This love

This love
Never has to say love
Doesn't know it is love
This love

This love
Doesn't have to say love
Doesn't need to be love
Doesn't mean a thing
This love

This love, oh-oh-oh ...
This strange love (strange love)
This love, ...

Thicker than blood

Blood is thicker than water.
Guess what is thicker than blood?

Ille qui nos omnes servabit

Season 5 只有17集，真的意犹未尽。本来以为会拍到Season 7，没想到Season 6 就是完结了。

一开始出场和Jacob 对话的人明显就是现在我们看到的John，他找到loophole 然后把Jacob 杀死。当时他们在看的那艘船想必就是后来搁浅在岛上的古船。从他们的衣着和那艘船看得出Jacob 真是年代久远。。。。

Jacob 明显不会变老，可是他有那么容易死吗？他去找Ilana 帮忙，应该是估计到他有一天会被杀，所以派她去拆穿冒牌的John。忽然发现，当时把Miles 拖上van 阻止他上岛的那个人不就是后来和Ilana 一伙的人吗？他们又是什么来头？

"What lies in the shadow of the statue?" ，这个问题如果是留给Richard 的，当初为什么要问Lapidus?

到底Jacob 是谁，他在耍什么把戏？我现在就要知道答案，Season 6 要等多久？没有Lost 的日子真难挨。。。

Madtv - Ka-son at the airport

These prohibited items include beverages, shampoo, hair gel, hair spray, cream, lotion, potion, glue, apple juice, donut filling..
I feel that the circle of negativity you are building around your offspring is very inappropriate. Babies absorb hostile energy like they are sucking it off your tits.

记得她吗？就是Can I have your number 里女扮男装的Darrel。

An Inconvenient Truth

The inconvenient truth is, I'm afraid that she might be the cause of the many problems we have now.

Home-made suppositories

1. Slice a section of fresh aloe vera
2. Cut it into bullet shape
3. Put them in the freezer for a few hours
4. There you have it, 100% natural suppositories！

With grace

Fine, I will take up the responsibilities, and do it with grace. Whatever it is you want to add in, I will do it with grace. I will not appear upset, or troubled, because none of it will help. I will just suck it, so bring it on.

好歌不停[19] Like a waterfall by Solarstone & Jes

I surface from the haze
I see the real reasons why
It's over my head, you'll see
Unclear mistakes it's hold
Our whole world is gonna break
It's crumbling so easily

You are the only one I want you know
Who really got under my skin
So if I dare to try, I dare ..
I'll prove to you it's not a waste
Like a waterfall, it all pours
Like a waterfall, it all pours
Like a waterfall, it all pours
Like a waterfall, it all pours

Those other thrills
Cause I've got a better place to go
Been out of my head, you'll see
I wanna take a taste
In this old violent light's chambers
That are burning me like gasoline

I see a rainbow leading out of the sun
I feel my adrenaline before it's already begun
I tried to tell you but you never listen
But it all pours out of me

I am choosing envy

You know how people always say that you should be happy for your friends when they are doing well. Got a nice job, nice car, good looking lover, etc.

But I can't. I'm sorry to say this, it's just who I am. I can't honestly feel happy for them, not when I think that I deserve better. I know I am better than him, why don't I get an opportunity like he's got?

So I started blaming my luck. Yes, it's just my luck that I didn't have the same opportunities. It's just my luck that I got into this shitty company and doing this shitty work. It's just my luck that I wasn't able to fully utilise my abilities and perform well. It's just my luck that my boss doesn't appreciate what I've done and see that genius inside me.

If I got the same opportunities like my friends had, I will do better than them. I know I can. Then why don't I just go, just leave this place and find that wonderful opportunities I deserve? Because I care, I still care about what I am doing, and I want to do it right. I want people to see, I want my employer to see what a great asset I am to them, and they should appreciate me better.

Yes, I don't feel happy for my friends, I envy them. Because being happy for other people settles you down, but envy pushes you further. It drives you crazy, it motivates you. It'll only make you feel good about yourself when you are doing better than your friends. And that's the kind of satisfaction I want. So proudly, I am choosing envy.

Madtv - Bon Qui Qui at King Burger

Welcome to King Burger what we can do it your way, but don't get crazy
security, se-curity...this dude need to go, need to go

....哪有快餐店会请保安的？

Obsession

If I don't get over you, I might eventually get myself into an accident.
But I don't think I can get over you, so I guess I will get into an accident.
No, I can't let that happen, I just need to be extra careful, because I don't want to get over you.

Gossip

From the film 'Doubt'.

Father Flynn was telling a story of a woman making confession to a priest for gossiping about a man she hardly knew, and how she felt guilty about it.

"....So the woman said she was sorry and asked for forgiveness.
'Not so fast!' says O'Rourke. 'I want you to go home, take a pillow up on your roof, cut it open with a knife, and return here to me!'

So the women went home, took a pillow off her bed, a knife from the drawer, went up the fire escape to the roof, and stabbed the pillow. Then she went back to the old parish priest as instructed.

'Did you gut the pillow with the knife?' he says.
'Yes Father.'
'And what was the result?'
'Feathers.' she said.
'Feathers?' he repeated.
'Feathers everywhere, Father!'

'Now I want you to go back and gather up every last feather that flew out on the wind!'
'Well,' she said, 'it can't be done. I don't know where they went. The wind took them all over.'
'And that,' said Father O'Rourke, 'is gossip!'"

一群饭桶

饭桶!饭桶! 统统都是饭桶！

好歌不停[18] High by Lighthouse Family

来自英国一黑一白的组合，这首歌让我有一种莫名的感动。

When you're close to tears remember
Someday it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high
Though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different colour
One day we're gonna get so high

And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you

Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will always keep it flying high in the sky of love

Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
Cause even the impossible
Is easy when we got each other
One day we're gonna get so high

The curious case of Benjamin Linus

Sayid 一枪把儿时的Ben 击倒，我没有用击毙这字眼因为谁都不知道他是不是真的死了。如果被枪击的是成年的Ben 那肯定是大快人心，虽然Ben 到现在究竟是邪是正也没有人能肯定。

中了那么一枪如果想存活似乎不太可能，如果他真的死了那所有的一切是不是要改写？Dharma Initiative 的人们就不会被杀，The Others 也不会由他领导。

又或者正如Faraday 所说，whatever happened, happened，所以不管70 年代发生了什么事都不会改变以后。时空交错的剧情什么事都有可能发生，John 不就是这样死而复生？

Madtv - 3 minute meal - Tuna melts

Let's get this 3 minute meal going!

我不要被人插

需要交警的时候，他们都滚去哪里了？

忘了想念堂

近来生活忙碌，我竟然忘了想念你。是不是因为太久没有想念你，所以你才托梦给我？Sorry, that came out wrong, you're still alive. You are, right? 当时我经过你身旁，你急忙跟了出来。我有点惊讶，你从来没有那么积极过，看来你也是很挂记着我的。

在我左手边的你感觉比我高很多，可是实际上你没有那么高。我们并肩走着，你问了我很多关于我的近况，我想给你一张名片，钱包里却一直找不出来。你没时间等我，因为你有工作要忙。我则在瞬间变暗的夜里独自抹黑回家，那感觉好凄凉，好陌生。

放心吧，我不会再忘了想念你的。

DIN Burger

我吃了好多档的汉堡，始终没有一档可以媲美当年在槟城吃的DIN Burger。这里的汉堡体积小，蔬菜放得少，味道也差了一截。DIN Burger 充分饱满，蔬菜放得一点都不吝啬，厚厚地都溢出来好像不用钱似的。牛肉鲜美多汁，陪上辣椒酱和蛋黄酱，满满地流出来，简直好吃到不得了。

好想念DIN Burger，想念在槟城三年的生活。转眼我已经离开三年了，还是会不时想起在那里的点点滴滴。What I would do to take another bite of DIN Burger。。。。

又见麻坡

去年十一月到麻坡拍的一组照片。


黄昏的港口

萌芽在舞爪

荒凉

寻找残羹

看不到边际

渔船

更多照片在此

好歌不停[17] 小聪明 - 王菲

已经是十年前的歌了，但是依然精彩。
这首小聪明收录在《唱游》里，当中的主打半途而废我没什么好感。事实上王菲过去十年里专辑中的主打歌我都没有什么好感，这点证明了我是理智的歌迷。

sick · love

I was trying to get your attention by paying no attention to you. Were you doing the same thing? I'm sorry, it's all my imagination.

I wish I could let you know how I feel about you. I wish I knew what's on your mind. But that's the answer I'll never be able to find out.

We may never see each other again, and there's nothing I can do about that. Is this something supposed to happen? Because good things don't happen to me.

Madtv - Can I have your number?

"The back of your head is ridiculous."
难以想象吧，饰演Darrel 的演员是个女生，不说我想没有人看得出来。

love · sick

For the first time this year

And so it rained.

千呼万唤始归来

第五季的Lost 终于回归了。
这次没有再玩flashback，enough of flashbacks。不过却透露了神秘小岛的能力，来个时空大转移。因为这样，应该死掉或消失的角色得以继续现身。不变的是我依然讨厌Jack 和John Locke。


剧情错综复杂地写到这个地步，编剧真的有办法收拾残局吗？非常期待接下来会发生的事。因为追看着这些戏，因为期待着剧情的发展，所以我有了生活的动力，这就是戏剧对我的影响。

Casino Royale

最近看了Casino Royale 的DVD，这部007 电影的风格果然和以往截然不同，感觉更贴近现实。除了男主角换了演员，整部电影的节奏、配乐、铺陈都让人耳目一新。我很喜欢这全新的风格，以至于我看了两次。开场的那段credits 的插画让我印象深刻，主题曲也很好听。007 电影就是一种经典，释放一种说不出的魅力。

如同片名，Casino Royale 的故事围绕着赌场，戏里角色玩的Poker game 引起我的注意。他们说了很多我听不懂的术语，好像什么big blind、small blind、full house、straight flush 等的。结果我看玩戏后还特地上网研究一番。

You know my name - Chris Cornell

重逢

闭关修炼了好一阵子，昨天初三有机会和旧同学叙旧。有些是两年没见，有些已经有六年没见了。原来他们还惦记着我，关心我的动态，有心了，谢谢大家。虽然我一直否认自己在玩失踪，但摆在眼前的事实又好像真的是这么一回事。我怎么有办法可以封闭那么久，都不会想要和大家聚会，我也不太了解我自己。

没有朋友的人生是很空洞的，这两年我有同事相伴，所以还不至于完全没有交际。可能因为这样，我忽略了曾经共同学习的伙伴们，当然大家各奔东西打拼着各自的事业也是一个原因。我以为自己并没有那么想念大家，即使这么多年不见也没什么差别，可是昨天的相聚很叫我感激，我很高兴自己参加了。可能久久一次的团圆才会值得珍惜与感激。我们都长大了，以前的时光很让人怀念，很庆幸我没有弄丢这份友情。

Thank you for being my friends, and yes, I do miss you all.

好歌不停[16] Crush by David Archuleta

我从来都不看American Idol，但是我必须承认，AI“出厂”的歌手真的很有水准。像当初我喜欢Daughtry，后来才知道他参加过AI。而这位年仅18的David Archuleta，是第七季AI 的亚军。我在上下班短短的车程中听过几次，不知道是谁唱的，也听不清楚歌词，但却印象深刻。最记得副歌有一段 yay...yay...yay...yay.yay.yay，除此之外什么都不知道。但是声音感觉上是白人，很奇怪，我们是不是可以从一个人的声音判断他是什么种族？

没听到一句歌词，不知道谁唱的，却要搜索出来，简直不可能。但最后我凭away..ay 还是找到了，觉得自己好天才，哈哈。