Sad factor

为什么闷闷不乐，
是少了什么，
还是多了什么？

Madtv - Oprah Winfrey

Thank you Oprah for creating Dr Phil show. For without it I will truly be somewhere in Texas, sitting in a trailer, drinking excessively and touching my private parts while watching Mexican soap operas.

Not a happy ending

I don't like this ending, I don't like this ending at all. Why can't they let Brian and Ericka win, just this once? They so deserve this, they were the only team who figured out themselves that the casino was Monte Carlo. And they never won a single leg during the race, it's like good things can't happen to them.

Is this a sign?

流浪居銮

出发

今天早上我很早就起床，因为我要展开半天的居銮之旅。从古来火车站到居銮，行程大约40分钟，不过今天火车迟了20分钟，我不知道这是不是惯性的事。经济车厢的票已售空，我买了头等座位，多付几块钱。差别在于一排有只有三个座位，所以稍微宽敞一点。同时车厢两端各设了一架LCD 电视，不过因为技术问题不能操作（一点也不惊讶）。上车没多久，服务生就开始分派矿泉水和面包，这是我没有预料的，就不知道是不是所有乘客都有份？

居銮火车站

Kluang RailCoffee

到了火车站，我就马上进行这次行程第一件要做的事-到居銮火车站用早餐。选搭火车除了因为已有一段时间没有坐火车，另外就是为了品尝居銮火车站的早餐，所以我特地空着肚子出门。整个餐室空间不大，最多我想能同时容纳36人。放在桌上一小包一小包的是椰浆饭（还有炒面炒米粉），每包分量很小，配料只有花生和辣椒。烤面包有分圆和方的，圆形烤面包在其他地方应该不常见。味道还不错，没有赞不绝口，但值得尝试。

美禄RM1.40，烤面包RM1.10，椰浆饭RM0.70

之后我就开始漫无目的地游走，虽然之前在网上搜索了一些资料，想到要去哪里，要买什么，要吃什么。但是网上资料有限，加上我没有代步工具，只能用走的，所以也没办法到远一点的地方。不过有几样东西是我想完成的：买居銮咖啡，东发豆沙饼，吃牛肉面。虽然地方不大，但纵横交错的道路还是让我迷失方向。不过还好我有记下一些在什么街道可以找到什么。

Jalan Lambak 的战前建筑，据说狮子头的方向代表主人的信仰

我想先买咖啡和豆沙饼，很幸运的，我找到东发饼家，更幸运的，该店也售卖居銮咖啡，不然我真的不知道要上哪儿找。买完这些居銮特产时间已是中午，可见我真的绕了不少冤枉路。是时候找地方填饱肚子了。我想吃牛肉面，可是找不到网上说的源记，却找到另外一家东甲牛腩面。卖相不错，汤头也够味，值得一提的是每张桌上还放了一瓶醋让顾客调味。我觉得原本的味道已经很好了，所以不能理解加醋的逻辑。

电视机牌咖啡和东发咸豆沙饼（一包RM2.50）

东甲牛腩‘粿条’（中，RM4.50）

吃完午餐，逛了附近商场，我又走了好长的路来到St. Louis Church。这里离火车站至少半公里，绝对不是网上说的"a few meters away"。此时我的双脚已经累到不行，只想马上回家。又走到遥远一端的巴士总站搭最快的一班车回家。

St.Louis Church

和其他地方相比，居銮不是什么旅游胜地，但这次居銮之行是为了我即将展开的一系列流浪做暖身。

我是不是走了很大一圈？

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讨好自己

我应该讨好你，还是讨好自己？

好歌不停[24] A gritos de esperanza by Álex Ubago

Álex Ubago
Born: 21/1/1981
Origin: Spain
Website: http://www.alexubago.com

Being me

Sometimes I am so mad at myself for being.....me!

There is a positive side in everything negative.

Don't think, just do.

Looks good on paper, fails in execution.

Don't use feelings, use figures.

Because you can't get half the capacity with half the perimeter.

A dog that bites is a dog that bites.

Pot calling the kettle black.

跳针

Actually 你不需要说 actually，你说其实我可以明白。这样在会话中不时穿插着几个英文词汇究竟是for 什么原因？这些英文词汇都可以很完整地用中文表达，by right 我们不需要这么做的。But 很奇怪的是这种现象好像在办公室特别明显，是担心同事不能理解吗？

像这样看我用中文写，偶尔又跳针到英文会不会很突兀？我不喜欢这样说话，that's why 这是我要cejanize 的一件事。（cejanize 是无法用中文代替的，所以不算）

Madtv - 3 minute meal - Banana split

There is nothing more delicious... than a perfectly ripe banana.

迷橙记

昨天是我们第一次见面。你大老远来到这里找我，我很惊喜，整个心花怒放。

你就如我印象中的那么好看，你的热情让我招架不住，在你面前我完全释放，隐藏不住对你的喜爱。和你在一起的每一刻都让我觉得幸福不已，那幸福的感觉足以把我灌醉。

虽然时间很短暂，但我会努力记住那些画面，不让它们从我记忆里淡去。我固执地相信我们俩是命中注定，我甩不掉这迷信，也不愿意清醒。

你究竟是毒药还是解药，把我麻醉得梦游神离、无心恋战？

Needle in a haystack

It's the most dreadful roadblock task in the history of TAR. Unrolling hundreds of hay bales to find one of seven flags hidden. You need luck, and there's no other trick. You need to be lucky to find the bale with flag hidden inside, and you will never know it's the wrong bale until you spend all your time and energy unrolling it.

If we were ever to face this challenge, you have to be the one doing it, because I have no luck.

cejanize

cejanize /ˈsiːdʒɜːnaiz/ verb to influence and to introduce people with cejan's ideas and style

eg: Have you been cejanized? Let me cejanize you.

脸

原来我的脸并非百毒不侵，原来没有永远的天生丽质，我也像其他人一样面对皮肤问题。大约半年前我的脸终于沦陷，变得越来越不平滑。

我以为会像往常一样自动痊愈，不留痕迹。可是这次没有。我以为我不会在意，不计较面子问题。可是这次我有。

我要开始护肤了，要开始选购保养品。谁会想到我也有今天？

Tough day for Brian & Ericka

Brian & Ericka started the leg with trouble starting their vehicle. Quite a common problem in this game. And so they ended up reaching the first route marker last. At the roadblock challenge, Ericka had trouble counting the bells in the tower.

All the other teams got it right at their first attempt, Ericka only got it right after 4 trials and several breakdowns. But lucky for her, Brian was so patient and encouraged her not to give up. You really need this kind of positive energy to stay in this game, and Brian just never seems to run out of it, always stays positive and calm, what a guy.

The couple was the last team to leave the roadblock, and chose the dancing challenge at Detour. At this point almost all other teams have completed the detour, only Maria & Tiffany were still working on it. The girls first opted for the golf challenge, but after several tee offs they decided they were not golfers and went for the other one. Oh did I mention the teams have to swim their way across a freezing canal to reach the golf course?

Turns out before the teams started the dance, one team member must successfully hit the bell on a high striker. This was proved to be too difficult for the girls to complete, as after more than 70 hits, none of the girls could hit the bell. After serious consideration, the girls decided to return to the golf course. Yeah, swim across the freezing canal again.

After wandering around in their bulky Dutch wooden clogs for I don't know how long looking for the dance hall, an agitated Ericka was whining again. Brian tried to keep her spirit up, only to discover that they were supposed to ride on a bicycle to find the place, which they never saw, after reading their clue again, dumb mistake.

Finally the couple arrived at the dance hall, and Brian hit the bell at first attempt. Luckily only one team member had to hit the bell, otherwise Ericka would probably waste a lot of time there. After completed the dance, Brian & Ericka were surprised to find that they weren't the last team to arrive. But Phil couldn't check them in yet, as they did not follow the clue and ride the bicycle, and were therefore incurred a 30-minute penalty. Haven't they had enough setbacks for the day?

As the couple were waiting for the longest 30 minute of their life to pass, Maria & Tiffany were still at the golf course, trying their best to complete the task. However the girls just couldn't complete the challenge, given how much more time they would have. In the end Brian & Ericka checked in as team no.5, successfully avoided elimination. And I am relieved, I am rooting for them.

KL KL

Why is everyone in KL? Should I move there too?

好歌不停[23] Free Loop by Daniel Powter

有在YouTube 收看康熙来了（或其他台湾综艺节目）的朋友应该听过这首歌吧。
Daniel Powter 的Free Loop。

I'm a little used to calling outside your name
I wont see you tonight so I can keep from going insane
But I don't know enough, I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah

I've been fabulous through to fight my town a name
I'll be stooped tomorrow if I don't leave as them both the same
But I don't know enough, I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah

Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah

And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright

I'm a little used to wandering outside the rain
You can leave me tomorrow if it suits you just the same
But I don't know enough, I need someone who leaves the day
Hey yeah

TARA2&3

一口气在三天内看完TARA2 和TARA3，很满足。YouTube 真是一个宝。Thanks stentitlyzier!
感觉心很痒，如果自己也能参与那该多好。

因嫉妒而失眠的夜晚，胡思乱想

我嫉妒你的人生，嫉妒得我没法停止想起你.
为什么不是我？为什么是你？
为什么，为什么要让我发现你？
得不到你我不是很辛苦？
到底是谁的错？

我要的人生

我到底要怎样的人生？
。
。
。
人老了就会想这些有的没的。

Madtv - The Greatest Action Story Ever Told

Stop killing Judas!

Guilt is a small price to pay for happiness

我也不想一直换工作，只是没遇到可以定下来的地方，可以让我安稳发展的空间。
我希望这新的一站会是正确的选择，我希望这是一个好的开始。
Beatrice 说过，跳槽就是所谓的自我增值。
虽然怀有一丝丝的歉疚与不舍，但为了我的前程这一点牺牲是必要的。
感谢上帝给我这个机会，虽然当中有一些不愉快，但我获益良多。

公，你回来了

回来了回来了，我引颈期盼的电视剧集陆陆续续回归。

The Amazing Race Yr 15(已经连续七年称霸Oustanding Reality Competition Program!), Desperate Housewives, Ugly Betty 相继回到萤光幕。总算可以陪我渡过无趣的日子，我的生活恢复动力。只不过我的挚爱Lost 还要等到明年初，恨不得现在就可以看到，但又舍不得它的结束。

又要开始忙碌下载的日子了。

玄

每个星期的这一天
你在这里出现 我也在这里出现
一天又一天 一直没改变

等了一星期的这天
我期盼你的出现 累积七天的想念
一件又一件 我努力遮掩

不知道你名字 给你取名叫做玄
不知道你几岁 想像你和我同年

我们离得不是很远 为何不能靠近一点
是我们在互相避免 还是命运不肯成全

你是一艘军舰 我是海岸线
等着你来搁浅
你在宇宙边缘 我在地平线
我要超越光年

*此贴于2006年6月23日首播